So funny that I wrote my post last night about our schedule, because no schedule did we follow when putting Miss A to bed. It was pure craziness! At 9:45 pm I got home from my first sewing lesson ( thanks Deanna) and Jeremy had been trying to put Miss A down for the last hour. The past couple of days had been touch and go when trying to lay her in her crib. She would be sound asleep and then the minute you stood up...bam...she would sit straight up. It was actually really cute cause she would point to the rocker and say please or more...but besides being cute, definitely not in our sleep plan. I walked in and could hear her yelling mom, so I thought I will try and get her down. No luck. One hour later we had a wide awake 15 month old and a very tired momma. ( not to mention Graham's constant movement and positioning on my nerve) I didn't know what to do, this isn't how we go to sleep. I usually sing to her and we gaze into each other's eyes and she gently nods off to lala land ( well not completely, but close...ha). I did what I thought was best and put her down in her crib...SCREAMING! Of course, I then begun to cry. I hate being the bad parent and feel like since I am home with her more, I get those duties. She eventually fell asleep, but woke up about 15 minutes later screaming. So I did what again I thought was best and went in and picked her up. I felt like every book i had read on sleep went out the window at that point because there was no clear strategy to my plan of attack. We then sat on the couch with her for about 45 minutes, gave her another bottle and Jeremy rocked her. She fell asleep, but cried as soon as we laid her down.After about 5 minutes, she fell asleep for the night. It was such a hard night. We were both exhausted and weary. There must have been something wrong. I am going to blame it on teething or maybe even gas( I always blame those 2 things). I just hate that feeling of being helpless. I would do anything for her and to not know how to make her feel better was just painful. Luckily we don't have these nights very often, God blessed us with a little girl who loves to sleep. At 5 months she was pretty much sleeping through the night. But it is nights like those that make me so nervous for baby #2. Can I do this? I feel as though I am the least bit qualified for this job at times, although it is the only job I have ever wanted. I thank God that I don't have to do this alone. That he is always near. I am humbled by the thought that God chose me for Ashtyn Layne and Graham Michael. That he sees me worthy enough to take care of her, teach her and comfort her on sleepless nights. Even when I have no idea what to do, He does and gently guides me. Thank you Lord for your love and provision. today is a new day and I am ready, refreshed and renewed. My life's purpose is to raise these children to know and love You. I do not take this job lightly.
So sweetly playing...
Last night was my first sewing lesson. I had so much fun,but boy was my back hurting by the end of the night. I have wanted to learn how to sew for so long now and am honestly giddy about the thought of making Miss A little dresses and rompers. The dress turned out beautiful!!! I am so proud. Funny though because Deanna had printed off a pattern for a size small which translated to about a size 6 little girls... So I made a huge dress! Ha! I kept looking at it thinking, this is big..haha! Deanna went ahead and cut it to make it smaller and finished it, since it was getting late. So half of the original is left...and I made all of that half! ha!
My Pictures are a little blurry...but that's okay, you can still see THE DRESS!
Miss A is so amused by the Vacuum. She loves to help me clean and LOVES the vacuum. She will follow me around and then as soon as i pause she will sit in front of the vacuum and let the vacuum air blow in her hair...ha! I love her curious, adventurous little spirit.
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