It is amazing to look back and see God's hand everywhere, even when we felt like...what are we doing? Here is a bit of the backstory...When Jeremy and I came off the mission field in 2010, Jeremy got a job at a local private high school. Jeremy loved teaching and loved this school. An interesting fact about this school is that they have an exchange program with other countries which ultimately leads to roughly a 40% population of Asian students. Jeremy had a few ESL classes. Interesting, right? After 2 years of teaching, we both realized that unfortunately being a private school teacher wasn't going to pay the bills for our growing family, so Jeremy decided to study business under a friend of ours. Without going to much into detail, this was/is a long process. There were many nights that we wondered what are we doing. Did we do the right thing leaving teaching? The end goal was to work in business in the morning and then work at a church the rest of the day... which we thought was a great plan... and it is/was a great plan...but it doesn't mean it was God's plan. Jeremy decided to start looking into different pastoral jobs. We were literally crying out, God we will go wherever you want us to go and do whatever you want us to do. When Jeremy came home that Wednesday afternoon and told me that Josh had called him about this crazy idea, I weirdly had this sense of peace and excitement. God had orchestrated every detail so that we were in the perfect position. We had no commitments..no job tying us to where we were at and an open heart (well kinda..China is far) How crazy is that..To be able to literally go...when God calls.
The Sunday before the opportunity we were in church worshipping. I sometimes have a hard time singing worship songs because I truly want to mean what I sing. So we stood there and I sang out..
"So I'll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned,
In awe of the One who gave it all.
I'll stand my soul Lord to you surrendered all I am is Yours."
It was such a convicting time, that weekend. How could I declare this before God, worshipping him and yet then turn away because it was more comfortable (way more comfortable) here. I truly truly believed those words, "my soul Lord to you surrendered all I am is Yours" and so the plans were in motion.
Part three coming soon...
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